Thursday, June 26, 2008
I feel like shit. There, i said it.
2:53 PM
Okays, i don't know why but i feel terribly miserable today...so, if u can't bear with my complaining, please don't read the below stuff.
It was the first day of school and so, my friends invited me over to the library to catch up on whatever that happened on during the holidays.Yea, so i asked my mom whether i could go or not and without even giving a 30-second pause she said NO.
That wasn't that bad cuz it was only 1 rejection so, i kept quiet and obeyed. So, the next day, all my friends were like asking me to go and said that it wouldn't be fun without me and i had to make up an excuse for not going( as per usual). I said that my mom didnt allow me cause on the first day it will be too crowded.They bought it! Problem over eh? No.
Then 2 days after that, my friends invited me to the library again...but this time my mom allowed me to go and asked me to eat there also...wait, theres a catch to it...I was enjoying my 1 hr time in the library till it was time for me to go home.
When i reached home,( this is where it gets frustrating!) Only my maid and sister were in. I called up my grandma and asked where she was....No surprise, they were at causeway point...so, were they spying on me or what....ahr!
Then when i came back home, my grandma started asking questions and started nagging and telling me that i going out too often( note: After 45++ days of holiday, this was the first time i went out with my friends.)Damn it! I felt so angry!
Then today, my friends invited me to go to the library again[the library is the only place my mum, grandma and UNCLE allow me to go other than School n sumtymes mcdonald(lyk once in a blue moon)]
I called my grandma and she was lyk WHY YOU WANT TO GO THERE, YESTERDAY ONLY YOU GO (yesterdae i ate at mcdoanals and only went to library 2 accompany my fren like for 10 mins) then she said with an angry tone: YOU CALL YOUR MOTHER AND ASK HER
I called my mum and this is what the convo looked like:
me: ma, i can go library for awhile like for 1hr or 45 mins
mum: NO
me: please ma
Mum: FOR WHAT YOU GOING?!
me: for awhile only, my friends ask me to go with them, can onot?
Mum:NO!!!!!!
End of Convo...
I mean...its not fair, im 14...and my allowance for going out is...minimum NVR GO OUT AT ALL
maximum: 1hr//2 weeks
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Its not fair...really not fair...sometimes i even wonder quietly to myself:
What if i just ran away?What if i stayed with my father?What if i was born in another family? What if both my parents were still together?What if my mum was like other mothers and not this strict?What if i were an orphan?What if i wasn't living with my grandma?
At the end of this post, i was literally crying
It was the first day of school and so, my friends invited me over to the library to catch up on whatever that happened on during the holidays.Yea, so i asked my mom whether i could go or not and without even giving a 30-second pause she said NO.
That wasn't that bad cuz it was only 1 rejection so, i kept quiet and obeyed. So, the next day, all my friends were like asking me to go and said that it wouldn't be fun without me and i had to make up an excuse for not going( as per usual). I said that my mom didnt allow me cause on the first day it will be too crowded.They bought it! Problem over eh? No.
Then 2 days after that, my friends invited me to the library again...but this time my mom allowed me to go and asked me to eat there also...wait, theres a catch to it...I was enjoying my 1 hr time in the library till it was time for me to go home.
When i reached home,( this is where it gets frustrating!) Only my maid and sister were in. I called up my grandma and asked where she was....No surprise, they were at causeway point...so, were they spying on me or what....ahr!
Then when i came back home, my grandma started asking questions and started nagging and telling me that i going out too often( note: After 45++ days of holiday, this was the first time i went out with my friends.)Damn it! I felt so angry!
Then today, my friends invited me to go to the library again[the library is the only place my mum, grandma and UNCLE allow me to go other than School n sumtymes mcdonald(lyk once in a blue moon)]
I called my grandma and she was lyk WHY YOU WANT TO GO THERE, YESTERDAY ONLY YOU GO (yesterdae i ate at mcdoanals and only went to library 2 accompany my fren like for 10 mins) then she said with an angry tone: YOU CALL YOUR MOTHER AND ASK HER
I called my mum and this is what the convo looked like:
me: ma, i can go library for awhile like for 1hr or 45 mins
mum: NO
me: please ma
Mum: FOR WHAT YOU GOING?!
me: for awhile only, my friends ask me to go with them, can onot?
Mum:NO!!!!!!
End of Convo...
I mean...its not fair, im 14...and my allowance for going out is...minimum NVR GO OUT AT ALL
maximum: 1hr//2 weeks
IHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMY LIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHAT
EMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFE
IHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFEIHATEMYLIFE
Its not fair...really not fair...sometimes i even wonder quietly to myself:
What if i just ran away?What if i stayed with my father?What if i was born in another family? What if both my parents were still together?What if my mum was like other mothers and not this strict?What if i were an orphan?What if i wasn't living with my grandma?
At the end of this post, i was literally crying
