Okay so from the starting of today...i knew that the whole day was gonna strt out topsy turvy.
So get this.

I went to school late just to meet up with my ex-friends//friends. I took all the courage i had in me...then i went right up and tried to say something to anisah who was the first to arrive. I flashed a smile and she gave an uncertain look. Just before she came zahirah also reached the interchange but not intently of course. So just to get the chat going on, i asked anisah whether she had brought her literature book as i didnt bring mine...but her reply was kinda snuggish yet with a sense of awkwardness and unwillingness as though she was speaking to an alien. I was like...oookay...i mean why do i even bother? After all, i came up to this decision just to satisfy nicole's query of me talking to them.

Nicole was all smiles as she came in because of a certain someone she saw at the interchange.
Kinda awkward actually both of them were having their own discussion and leaving me and zahirah out...i kinda sensed that they were feeling uncomfortable...out of the corner of my eye i might have even thought that anisah was saying to nicole,"this is weird"

Leaving that behind as just a thought and not a proved statement, i went to schl with rebecca cuz she said that we might be late for the councillor meeting even though i had intended not to come.
Even Rebecca was not speaking to me properly. WEird. Wayy weird. Some thing was going on.

Whole day passed as a breeze until the end of the day. Zahirah was worried of chanel snatching me away from her(just what i needed...another friend fued) so she was talking to me about it while walking back home...i understood how she felt...and promised her that i would spend more time with her next time.

So while we were waiting for the bus...suddenly rebecca, nadhirah, and an unknown fren came. I think the unknown girl's name is ashiqin or sumthyn like that...anyways...nadhirah saw us...she came and stood by us and was like..pitying my state...I MEAN WTH...PLEASE DONT PITY ME PEOPLE. Either help me out in my problem give me some assurance or sumthyn...don't ever look down on me...i felt bad right after that...Rebecca is still not talking to me much...that worries me...Hmph...I wanna express more...sadly...i can't cause anyone might be lurking and they might catch me red handed... so the best place for me to confide is a place where people are like me. A place like david-cook.org.

I vented my anger there through songs and poem and have earned quite a lot of recognition from these...who would have thought that my state of loneliness would results into such positive effects. Anywaes i was just thinking about this lately:
Maybe this was fated to happen.
I prayed for my marks to improve for the end of year exams...all these while my grades were splendid till i joined my ex- friends//friends and lost track of my studies and strayed off. Maybe if im apart from them i would study hard again...and maybe just maybe get into a good class next year....so i must be positive...